Well the last two days have been a whirlwind. I went in yesterday for my scheduled surgery and it did not go as planned. I hadn’t met the specialist I was referred to at the hospital, so when I got there I was eager to see who’d be working on my snatch (lols). She examined me in the pre-op, and after checking out the cyst she’d be cutting out, decided that it was too large and too risky for her ability. Apparantly she’s “just a gyno”, and not an actual surgeon – she assumed from the referral details that the cyst was small, and easy to aspirate rather than have cut out. So she sent me home, and told me she’d refer me to a specialist who had access to an OR and team that could properly deal with me. I was SO frustrated…I lost my shit in the hospital. I was so upset that I was being turned away yet again. I cried, I yelled, I made a bit of a scene…and feel bad about it but omg its been over a year of pain, and being tossed around from doctor to doctor so I had pretty much had enough. I went home, ranted on twitter, and cried a ton. I called the hospital and spoke to the main desk to see if there was anything they could recommend, and they referred me to this nursing hotline thing thats local, where nurses can talk to you about your symptoms and stuff, and give you advice on where to go. So I called, spoke to a very sweet, understanding nurse, and after about 45 mins on the phone, she told me the best thing I could do was call around at other hospitals and see if anyone would advise coming in to see them in the ER dept. Well, one of the local hospitals told me that they have qualified staff around to deal with my kind of issue 24/7 and are on call, so I went in today. I wasn’t too optimistic about getting help but figured it was worth a shot and omg I’m so glad I went. I got lucky that it wasn’t busy at all, and literally was seen within one minute by a triage nurse, then registered a few mins after that and not even 15 mins in the waiting room and I was called in to be examined by a doctor. She said that she could definitely get someone to see me, and half an hour after that, I was being prepped for surgery! Woot! I was so impressed by the speed of everything and how concerned they all were. I explained how hellish its been the last year not only dealing with snatch pain, but having to deal with various doctors treating me the way they had, and they couldn’t believe all that I’d been through. They told me from now on to just come straight to the hospital if I have any kind of issue. So I went in, and they froze my lady bits and cut out what needed to be cut out. It hurt quite a bit, but I was so relieved to have it taken care of. They got most of it, drained what was there and cut out what couldn’t be drained but they told me that I do have a risk of it growing back within 6 months to a year since I’m prone to cysts (have had ovarian cysts and breast cysts in the past). But for now, its gone.

I’m glad to be home, bundled in bed…feeling pain but I haz some pain meds to help. I’ll be taking a couple days to just kinda get the healing underway and once I’m feeling a bit better, I’ll be back to see you boys I want to thank everyone who’s not only listened to my ranting and frustration the last two days, but offered their support and well wishes. It felt good knowing that you guys understood my feelings, and knowing that I wasn’t overreacting about all the drama. So thank you

Anyhoo, I’m off to shower and clean my shiz..was bleeding afterwards so I’m feeling rather gross. TMI I know haha See you boys soon hopefully! xoxox

Well, the results for the Miss Freeones were announced tonite, and unfortunately it looks like I didn’t make it. Sorry guys! I do want to thank everyone for their amazing support and for being my cheering section. I couldn’t believe how far I made it in the competition, never thought I’d even pass the first round, so thank you!

I briefly mentioned today in my chats about my upcoming surgery. Alot of you know I’ve had some lady health problems over the last year, and was having difficulty finding a doctor to help me out. Well, I got a call today saying I am booked at the hospital ten days from now to have everything taken care of. Without going into TOO much icky details, I have a large cyst growing on the inside wall of my vagina. Its nothing to be concerned about thank god (not cancerous, woo!) but its caused me very extreme pain in the last 6-12 months (hence why I haven’t been doing many prvts as of late, been limiting myself because after one or two shows, it gets too painful to bear). So they’re going in to operate and cut it out. I’m excited about not having to deal with it anymore, but am kinda nervous about spending a couple weeks healing down there, and feeling the pain. Hopefully they give me good pain meds, but it’ll be a sore couple of weeks. I won’t be able to do privates with toys, and will likely take a few days off to heal and just relax so I don’t complicate anything or risk an infection. But yeah, thought I’d give you guys a heads up so you are aware of whats going on because I know alot of you have been super concerned about it.

I’ve still been looking for houses in my new city…hoping to find something soon so I can just put down my deposit and not have to worry about it. I listed all of my furniture for sale, and tomorrow nite I’m holding a “yard sale” in my house lol. Hoping to get rid of most of it, so I can have a bit of extra cash to pay for my moving company. I am getting sooo excited to move home!

And finally I want to give a shout-out to the Christmas Raffle winner – Pennyman aka. PJ! I’ll be starting the next raffle this weekend and it will be Valentines day themed! Woot! Anyhoo I’m going to peace out, spent the nite moving furniture and packing a bit. See you boys tomorrow!

Hiyoooo! Sitting in bed, eating some cake, thought I’d say hi and update you boys on shiz! I hope everyone had a magical Christmas holiday! And I hope everyones New Year is starting out great I was pretty happy to realize that I had accomplished half of last years New Years resolution list! To refresh everyones memory, here is what it was:

1)Lose 20lbs (not going so well lol.) **I did lose ten lbs, thanks to my seasickness on my cruise! lol! so this counts as .5 completed lol***
2)Become debt free **didn’t happen…but I DID stay on track with my debt repayment, and didn’t accumulate any more debt this yr so its not a complete loss…I count it as a .5 completed too lol***
3)Visit a new city/country that I’ve never been to ***I did this! First time in Miami, and first time in Mexico!***
4)Work on my body to make it something I’m happy with (hellooo expensive procedures!!!) ***I did this too! BEWBS!***
5)Make the switch to organic 100% ***Half did this…I switched to all organic meat, but haven’t switched with produce/grains yet…so .5 completed***
6)Finally do something for myself, extra-curricularly (is that a word?) I want to start taking pole dancing lessons, both to work out, and have some fun. ***didn’t do this….in fact, found less time to do hobbies this year moreso than any other year due to my hectic summer working***
7) a. Meet the Backstreet boys ***Did this….TWICE!***
b. Bone Nick Carter ***didn’t happen ***

So as you can see, it was a pretty decent job of keeping my resolutions, especially since I had EIGHT of them lol. But this year, I only have two:

1) Move home to Ontario to be closer to family. And I’ve given my notice at my apartment which means I have to be moved out by March 31…so the ball is moving!

2)Become debt free. I need to get rid of my debt. I have about…ehh 35k between my student loans, debt from my last relationship, a credit card that got racked up trying to move here in the first place, and a few other small debts that are just a pain in my ass. I need to eliminate this, because I have huge dreams of buying my first home, buying a car…going back to school…etc. So this year, its all I’m going to focus on, after I settle into my new place.

So yeah, those are my NY resolutions! The move so far is going ok…crunched some numbers, and the only way to make it even slightly happen, is to sell most of my stuff to a)raise $$ for the move, and b)save money on renting a uhaul and shiz. Plus, it’ll be kind of nice to start “fresh”, since all of my furniture is old, some that I had in college, alot of it that I purchased with my ex. etc etc. So I’ll be starting new in Ontario, which is great. Kind of scary to move into a new place and not have a bed to sleep on, or table to sit at…but hopefully with some help and hard work, I can make it happen. (psssst, if you want to help me out, AND score some sexy custom content…see the “help Ashleigh move” tab on this blog! hehe) I actually listed all of my shit online a few days ago and already have some asshat trying to scam me. I listed my sofa up for sale for $700 (I paid $1400 +tax for it last year) and he contacted me saying “I found your exact sofa for sale at Sears for only $550, way to try to scam people” blah blah….idiot he is! So I went and checked and noooope, he’s looking at the ugly chocolate brown version of my sectional sofa, which is selling for $550 PER PIECE (there are two pieces lol) so its like $1100 for that sofa, which isn’t even mine. So I emailed him back and set him straight, and also linked him to the sofa on the Sears website that IS the sofa I am selling that is selling for $1299.99…half of what I am selling mine 10 month old sofa for. Loser lol. But yeah, been getting alot of responses so I should have most of my stuff sold by next week! EEK! I found some new places to rent in my new city too, still waiting to hear back on the one I LOVEEEE but I have some backups too.

Anyhoo, I’ve rambled on for awhile, and I should go get purdy and make some din-din! And call my mom because I haven’t talked to her since Xmas lol. Hope to see you boys laters! Xxoxox