Well I’m alive! I’m rather drugged up and kinda loopy right now so I’ll do my best to make sense of today, but yeah – I’m so glad its over! I can’t sleep tonite because I’m in oodles of pain, but thats ok because it gives me the time to post about the surgery and how it went!!!

I didn’t sleep at all last nite…I was in and out, and couldn’t just relax. I got up before the alarm and went to have my shower, washing with my special soap and took out all my jewellry. I had to remove toenail polish, and did my hair, and wasn’t allowed to put on makeup which kind of bugged me, but I knew that after I got to the clinic, I wouldn’t even care lol. I was starving by this point and all I could think about were BLT’s and diet coke haha. But I got myself ready, ran to the bank to pick up money for my coochie procedure (which didn’t end up happening, explaining later) and to grab change for the meter because apparantly patients aren’t entitled to free parking *insert sarcasm here* haha.

So my caregiver (we’ll call him D) and I drove downtown to the clinic, checked me in and I found out I was the third person of the day getting boobies. I waited for awhile before the nurse called me back and showed me to the locker room where I could change into my hospital gown and robe, and put on those cute little booties. Once I did that, me and D went to the exam room to wait awhile before the docs came in to see me. I was actually really glad he came along, and was involved because waiting alone would have been torture. I was getting super scared by this point and was glad to have someone there to break the ice with. My hospital robe made me feel like a karate kid, so I started doing kung fu moves in front of the big mirror, and the nurse popped her head in to see wtf I was doing and I told her I was being a kung fu master and she laughed her ass off. I deal with my stress in weird ways haha.

So after about half hour of waiting, the nurse came back to take my pre-op pictures and had me sign the forms and whatnot. She said they were a bit behind, so it’d be a bit of a wait and boy it was. I waited another 45 mins to see the doctor and it was the longest of my life. He finally came in, went over the procedure, marked up my boobies for surgery and then examined my cyst which he was going to remove, but in the end chose not to because it would have been too high of a risk. He said that by cutting it open and off, it would push bacteria directly into my bloodstream, and likely cause an infection in my body, and my boobs couldn’t handle that. I trusted his opinon and was happy that he chose my safety over taking my $800. He said we can reschedule the coochie procedure for next month, and it’ll wind up being cheaper for me because I can just get local anesthetic instead of the general.

So after the doctor left, my anesthesiologist came in and went over my health and how the anesthesia would make me feel. I asked him to put a shit ton of anti-nauseants in my IV and he said that he would but that about 30% of people still get sick regardless, which made me worry lol. I did not want to get sick at all, that was my biggest concern. But after he left, the nurse came back in and told me they were ready for me. So I said bye bye to D, and walked down to the OR…which is when I really started to panic a bit. Everything happened so fast, they were putting sticky things on me, putting in my iv, covering me with warm blankets because I was shivering…then the anesthesiologist said the nurse was going to give me oxygen and that I’d start to feel the cocktail working any second…it took a few seconds to kick in but once the ceiling started twisting around, I closed my eyes and was out cold.

I don’t remember much after that….I remember being up, and the nurse telling me to open my mouth so I could take some pills, with water and I remember thinking “holy crap thats alot of pills in my mouth” but I swallowed them all. Then I blacked out again, and the next thing I remember was feeling the worst pain, and all I could say was “PAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN”…it was pretty bad. She went and got more pain meds for my IV which helped a bunch. Then she came over and asked me how I was feeling and all I could say was “SICKKKKKKKKKK” because the nausea kicked in and it was so bad. I kept fighting the urge to puke everywhere. She went and put anti-nauseants in my IV but ten mins later, was still feeling sick so she put more in….and then had to put two doses of gravol in there to finally help me feel better. I kept going in and out, listening to the girl beside me making noises because she was hurting too. I asked the nurse if she could lift off the blanket so I could see my boobs and she said sure and lifted it up and I smiled and was like “wow….I have titties now” and she laughed at me again. The surgeon came to check on me and said everything went perfectly. And before I knew it, the nurse came in and said “ok you’re ready to go home and D is waiting” so she helped me into the wheelchair and wheeled me out to the underground parking garage where he was waiting. The car ride home was brutal, every bump and pothole I felt in my chest. But I finally made it home and got straight to the couch. D gave me my meds, and I curled up to sleep for a bit while he watched The Mummy or something. I woke up a few times, had some crackers and Gatorade, tried walking around to get the blood flowing…it hurt pretty bad. My chest feels like there’s a 200lb weight sitting right on top of it, and I’m swollen and bruised from the bandages. My torso is purple from the dye in the antiseptic cleaner they used on my chest too haha. Looks so weird. But the pain is something thats getting worse as the nite goes on, so when the nurse calls me tomorrow I’m gonna ask if its normal that pain meds don’t really take away any degree of pain. :/ I mean I’m tough, I can deal with it, but if I could go without pain, thats what I’d obviously prefer. Nausea comes and goes, which sucks but trying to keep it together. But I can’t stop looking at how big they are! They look so great, even though they’re bandaged up. I sent pics to my niece and her mom (don’t worry, my niece is 16 so she’s not gonna get wierded out lol) and my brothers girlfriend and they were like “woww!” so yeah..good so far.

Friday is when I can take the bandages off and have a shower. So if I’m moving around easy and feeling ok, I’ll be on cam Friday nite to see you guys and say hi. I spent some time on mfc tonite, just pm-ing my boys and it was great to feel the support. I miss you all, and cant wait to be back xoxoxo

Woot my blog is back up and running. I’m a loser and didn’t pay my hosting fee’s, so it was down for a day or too…silly me :/ lol. But its all good and paid up and running smoothly again woot! I can’t believe my surgery is two days away now! Holy shiz! I’m getting super nervous but am SO excited. I’m so happy that the majority of my boys are supportive of me, it means so much. I feel like you guys are just as excited as I am! I’ve started a “new bra fundraiser/old bra giveaway” and info on that can be found here I appreciate any spoilage because new bra’s are going to be pricey…not to mention new tops, bikini’s, etc. Oi vey! But excited to have new bewbies to dress up! And I’ve started a new raffle now that the last raffle is done (congrats to Steve081370 for winning!!!) and the new raffle’s winner will be the VERY FIRST person to see my new boobs on cam! Details can be found at my profile on MFC here Well now that I’ve updated, and gotten my blog back in running order, I’m gonna peace out and get my hiney on cam! I only have a few days left with you guys before I have to take time off so I’m gonna soak up every second I can with you guys! Love youuuu! <3

Ickkkk. I’m sick. But I’m sure you already know that, if you follow my twitter. I’ve been bitching about it for the last few days lol. I was sick earlier in the week and took a day off to rest and was feeling good…but then did 12 hrs on MFC, which clearly was a stupid idea because I woke up feeling like I’d been hit by a truck. Fever, chills, throat sore, voice gone, ughhh. That time of year though, once the weather changes from summer to fall, it always hits me. My immune system can’t handle the season changes lol. So I’m in bed, bored out of my freakin mind. I thought I’d blog and pass some time. I’m hoping by tomorrow I’ll turn the corner and feel better because I miss you guys….and the next two weeks are my last couple weeks before I disappear for a bit. What for might you ask?

Well, some of you know, I’ve told a few of you boys so far and have gotten great support so hopefully that support continues because I’m scared – but I’m getting a breast augmentation on the 19th. I’m expecting some backlash, for a few reasons. I’ve already had some of my boys tell me outright that if I ever got it done, that they’d hate me and think I was a “shallow bitch” (nice, eh?) But you know what, its ok. I’ve been wanting this for a couple of years, and things always got in the way (relationships, lack of money, constantly moving etc) but this spring I decided that I’m going to do this now for a few reasons: 1)I’ve gone through a rough year personally, and I think I frickin deserve something for ME, 2) The surgeon here has AMAZING credentials, and I want to make sure he does it over any other doctor, and since I’m moving in the spring…it has to be now and 3) Now is the only time to do it. Once I move, I’ll have to restart my photo business from the ground up, and that takes time and alot of work. SO I had a pep talk with myself and decided that if I could work my ass off this summer, and save the money for it, I’d do it. All of those weddings shot paid off. I was able to earn enough by the end of August and pay for the surgery in cash, which is something that I’m super proud of….I worked too hard this summer, but it was all for something that I feel that will be a positive “addition” to my life. I know I’m going to lose alot of my boys over this, and you know what? Its fine and I totally understand if you have a problem with fake boobs, or aren’t turned on by me anymore – but I truly hope anyone who does have a problem, won’t have a problem with ME…just my boobs. And I sincerely ask for anyone who has an issue, to refrain from attacking me verbally please and thanks. When I cut my hair back in the spring, I actually recieved hate mail, guys telling me I was ugly, and that I ruined myself. Guys who tried to make me feel like complete shit, and I didn’t deserve that and I won’t deserve any negative flack I get from this either. I hate that I’ve been made to feel afraid to tell you guys, and made to feel like I can’t change my appearance without having to consult you guys first but…thats the life of a camgirl I suppose. And I know that those who truly care about me, and enjoy me for more than just my T&A, will stick by me. I appreciate those who’ve been supportive thus far, because I know you guys will be the guys who’ll help me recover quickly and get back into the swing of things!!!

Along with the augmentation, I’ll HOPEFULLY be getting anther necessary procedure done. Alot of you know about my “girly” issues I’ve had the last few yrs, and although the health care system isn’t helping me out with them (fuckers), my surgeon has agreed to help me out and take care of what needs taken care of (to be more specific, I have a grape sized cyst- thankfully non cancerous- in my lurvely vajayjay that causes me extreme pain when penetrated, when taking care of monthly lady stuff etc…sorry for the TMI) but yeah, my surgeon said that he can operate and remove it, as long as it doesn’t pose a risk of infection to the bewbies. Its going to cost me out of pocket to get it taken care of privately, so hopefully I can make it happen…I’ve had doctors turn me away, and my most recent consult won’t even look at it until December because its not a “high priority”…obviously stressing me out. I’m in pain, and want it taken care of. So disappointed with my healthcare system right now. But anyways…hopefully that’ll be in the past in a few weeks

Anyways, I should stop ranting and get some more vitamin c into me. I gotta get my ass back in gear! Thats the update on me, and whats going on with my body and what’ll be going on in the next few weeks. If you want to talk about it with me, feel free to email me (spexyashleigh@gmail.com) because I’m in bed and would love someone to chat with haha. I might perv on MFC today too lol…not often I get time to visit the lovely ladies of Mfc.