I hate this week.
I try not to rant or post poopy blog entries because I’m huge on positivity but seriously. This week can go to hell. First I nearly lop off my thumb. It sucks having issues typing, or using my right hand. Its also not sexy when I’m in a private show and it hurts to use my toys lol. Seriously. GET BETTER THUMB NOW OR I’LL FINISH YOU OFF!!!
And this is Valentines Day week. I hate Valentines Day. Bigtime. I’ve never been single on Valentines Day until this year and not one Vday in the last ten years has even been slightly good. Examples:
My first Vday with my first boyfriend, he forgot it was Valentines day altogether and when my brother reminded him of it, he ran down the street to the flower shop but all they had left were gross, broken or half dead roses. I found a single rose, stem broken, and petals half off it sitting in my locker at the end of the day, with a note apologizing for forgetting.
My next Vday, I started seeing a good friend of mine. He was a great friend, we were super close. Vday I put out for the first time with him because I thought it was a good day to finally put out….and he dumped me the next day saying that he wasn’t over his ex yet. WTF?
I’ve dated guys who didn’t believe in Valentines Day for being too cliche and commercialized…which would be fine, if they were even slightly romantic at some point throughout the rest of the year. But they weren’t. So really in essence, they weren’t against Vday…they were against making their gf happy. lol
And my last partner (most serious one) spent Vday 1 at home playing video games while I got stuck hanging out with his loser best friend. Don’t ask. Vday 2, he didn’t do anything. Made a dinner reservation, but had me pay. So so romantic. Vday three, (last year) same thing..minus the dinner. (I do need to add that I did do things for my partners…homeade cards, breakfasts in bed or homeade dinners, sexy lingerie…etc. I at least made the effort, even if they didn’t really care)
Boo. So this year, being finally single I figured that I’d make myself happy and make this the best Vday ever by going to a hotel for the nite to get some R&R and spend some time at the spa and guess what? Its not happening because “stuff” came up financially (regarding my last bf ) and now the money I set aside for my weekend has to go to a few bills that weren’t my responsibility. Whoooopdee dooooo this is awsome. So understandably, I’m pretty peeved off and upset. Why why why do I even try to make this holiday good!? Its just a stupid holiday where girls get their hopes up only to be crushed. All of my gfs bitch about the same shiz. Why won’t we ever learn????
Sorry for the negativity.I should put a disclaimer at the top of my blog post to warn those who don’t want to get bummed out by my shiz. I hate ranting and hate feeling so down but had to get out my frustration. Hope you guys understand *hug*