Someone reminded me of something that I’ve always wanted but will never (or likely never) have. So here is my list of unattainable things that I so so want.

Nuff said.

Sub Sauce – this stupid province, for some reason, thinks subsauce is weird. They like Donair sauce…which looks like jizz with a bit of blood mixed in to make it pinker. BARF.

Flame thrower. I don’t care what anyone says, I want it bad. Ever since I first played GTA way back in the day, I’ve lusted for one. I don’t know if I’d ever use it to torch enemies, but it’d sure be cool to use to start a campfire!

To go along with my flamethrower, I’d like a pink gun. Again, not that I’d use it on anyone, but it’d sure be hot strapped to my thigh.

Every farm/meat processing company to be organic. This really concerns me. I hate knowing that 95% of the meat thats consumed all over the world is essentially man-made meat. Animals that are shoved full of hormones to make them grow faster, which usually ends in deformation…animals that never see the light of day and are assaulted, abused and treated like nothing. Organic farms care for the animals, give them the life they deserve and feed them the way nature intended. I wish more people would support organic farming. Its better for the animal, better for the environment, better for the farmers who actually have morals, and most of all, its better for YOU.   *gets off soapbox*

I wanna be in Playboy. Sure its a superficial aspiration, but its something that I think would be fun. It’ll never happen though, Hugh Hefner is far too picky, and far too discriminating against tattoos and crap

Ok thats my list for now. I may add to it later if I think of something else. Later gators!

Hey boys! I just finished up the tally and donations for the Haiti relief effort! YAY!!! The total amount raised was $720.75 !!!!!! Great job guys, seriously I’m so proud of you guys and so thankful for everyone who came out and helped a great cause! For all you skeptics, here’s the screencap of all my tips for the day:

I just made the donation to the Canadian Red Cross (and remember, what I donated gets matched by the Canadian Government, so really, we were able to raise over $1400!!!) I blocked out my real name and address and such so that I don’t get stalkers. lol soweeee creepos.

Ok and here’s the official Red Cross Reciept….I apologize for having a bit too much fun in MS Paint :/

So there you have it! We all did so great, and I really want to thank those who not only donated, but also came by just to support what I was trying to do. Had alot of haters throughout the day, but you guys who came out and cheered everyone on and enjoyed the show really made the whole day amazing. Although I hope that nothing catastrophic like that happens again, I do hope that one day we can maybe do that again to help out another cause. Its nice to see how everyone can come together and put the superficiality of camchats aside to do something that needs to be done. So for that, I thank you

I did something totally not like me. You guys know I was contemplating on going brunette today right. Well. That didn’t happen. But I did do something ELSE totally effed up!

(before you get freaked out about this- don’t worry. My hair will still be long for you boys because I normally wear extensions on cam. I just lopped a few inches off my normal hair)

so…..*drumroll please*………..

My hair is short. Super short.

This is me making my mother cry LOL

So yeah. There we have it. I love it, seriously…makes me feel so good and so much lighter. 2009 was an unimaginably hard year for me and with 2010 now here, and an insane amount of changes taking place…I decided to make one more change, and its a change for myself. I know alot of you boys are going to hate it (again I must tell you not to worry because my hair WILL be long for MFC so your boners won’t deflate) but…this is for me. For when the cam turns off, the gstring gets hung up and I’m in my pjs, drinking wine and working towards making my personal life the best it can possibly be.

Hope you guys don’t mind it!  <3

I’m seriously so upset right now. I can’t move home I’ve been making plans and trying to work this out the last few days and today got word that its not going to happen. Apparantly, the fine print on my lease states that if I don’t give notice to move three months prior to the lease being done (which would have been December 1/09 – lease is done March 1rst/2010) then my lease automatically renews for ANOTHER FULL YEAR. Another year. Unbelievable. I called the Nova Scotia tenancy board to see if this was even legal and apparantly, its the way they do it here in this province. They don’t like to do things month to month, they like to protect the renters rights to have people paying all year round instead of bouncing tenants all the time. WTF?????

In Ontario, once your first years lease is done, then you pay month to month and aren’t tied into a contract anymore. As long as you give two months notice, you can leave anytime. I am absolutely shellshocked that the way they do things here is so effed up. What if a family HAD to move? I mean for a job transfer or something? They’d be screwed! This is so unbelievable. I COULD try to sublet but thats hard to do since my house is on the higher end, price wise, and the city’s economy is pretty low. I mean, its worth a shot but…still hard work. I really wanted and needed to be back home in Ontario, close to family and now I’m here, alone, in this stupid, unfair, lobster smelling province until March 2011. I’m actually crying right now, my parents are going to be so disappointed because they miss me and haven’t seen me in so long…most of my family I haven’t seen in over a year. Gah.

2010- you suck so far.

You guys may have noticed that I haven’t been around the last few days. Well…some huge changes in my life are going on right now, and some potentially bigger changes might be around the corner. I might be moving home!! (back to Ontario that is, not home to mom and dad- ick lol) But yayy. Trying not to get my hopes up yet, because its not a for sure thing. Just crunching numbers, timing, figuring out if I”ll have the help I need from some people and seeing if its financially feasible…but it just might work. Please please send me your positive vibes because I really really need and want this change in my life. <3

Last nite I had my FIRST EVER meatball sub. I’d been wanting one since earlier this week when I was watching the episode of Friends where Joey, Ross and Chandler take a ride in Phoebe’s bfs police car, and they think they’re getting shot at so Joey dives to save “the best meatball sandwich in the world”. After seeing that, I realized that I’ve never had one! So last nite I went to Quizno’s (sorry Orange Boy, no subway) and got theirs and took it home….and holy heaven batman! The meat! The cheese! The marinara! ZOING! It was effing delicious. So delicious, in fact, that I went back today and am now eating meatball sub #2!

So much for my New Yrs resolution to lose weight…..lolz.

Ever have days where you just don’t want to move? Like where you feel your ass is glued to whatever surface it happens to be resting on and if you attempt to move it, you’ll like…die? Yup. Thats where I am riiiiight now.

Happy New Years guyz! Hope you had a great NYE and hope you have a prosperous and naughty 2010. A few guys wanted to know  my resolutions, so here they are:

1)Lose 20lbs  (not going so well lol.)

2)Become debt free

3)Visit a new city/country that I’ve never been to

4)Work on my body to make it something I’m happy with (hellooo expensive procedures!!!)

5)Make the switch to organic 100%

6)Finally do something for myself, extra-curricularly (is that a word?) I want to start taking pole dancing lessons, both to work out, and have some fun.

7) a. Meet the Backstreet boys

b. Bone Nick Carter

So thats it! Working on #1 and #2 continuously. Once #2 is accomplished, I’ll move on to the rest haha. Money is the big one….need to work through my debt and life probs before they swallow me whole. Other than that, I just want health and happiness this year…and a notch on my bedpost belonging to Nick Carter