Ok, after much thought and budget crunching, I have had to make a really pooptacular decision. I am no longer attending the Exxxotica Chicago convention. The last month or so I have been struggling to hit my goals on MFC and because of the lack of tippage I’ve been recieving (and the wonderful MFC servers continually giving me problems therefore keeping my cam time full of tech problems lol) I am so far behind on my bills. Last two months I’ve had to pay double rent, as you know, because of my sudden move, so that, coupled with not hitting my goals has hit me financially and I’m just in no place to make two trips next month. So after considering both trips, I’ve chosen to stick with LA for a few reasons (one being that LA is a place I’ve wanted to go foreverrr and another being my plane ticket is non refundable lol) I am truly sorry to those who planned to come see me in Chi-town and hope that you understand my reasoning for it. Unfortunately I have to pay out of pocket to make these meet and greet trips and sometimes it just isn’t financially feasible. My sincere apologies

Well as a lot of you know, I’ve been working on something privately for the last month or so, and have been asking everyone for good luck. Now that I’ve gotten it all secured, I can let you know that I’m moving (again). This isn’t happy news persay, because the circumstances surrounding me having to move aren’t positive, but in spite of that I’m trying to remain optimistic about this upcoming change and hope that it offers me happiness, security and peace of mind. With all of the drama surrounding my stalker/harassment issues in January, the time has come for me to put my safety first. Since I was outed by this person and had my privacy compromised, I’ve had numerous packages and letters arrive anonymously to my home, addressed to my cam name. I’ve also had dozens of phone calls from anonymous callers. I’ve tried going to the authorities, lawyers and private investigators, none of which can help me since there isn’t a verbal threat of physical harm (as if that makes me feel better)…so the only thing I can do is essentially go into hiding, move and change my address and phone number and try to regain my privacy and anonymity. I’ve taken measures in my personal life to cut out anyone who isn’t immediate family, and immediate close friends to try to weed out anyone who may be callous enough to do this to me, so hopefully the issues stop. I’m saddened and frustrated that my choice to be an adult model on the internet has changed my life and compromised not only my safety but the safety of my family…but at the end of the day, this is what I love to do and I’m not going to stop because some douchebag in my real life seems to take issue with it (either that, or just has a REALLY boring life of his own). I ask for support in the next few weeks because you know how frazzled I get when I’m moving…especially with my anxiety. I’m going to try my hardest to retain the schedule that I maintain currently, however understandably I”m going to be missing a bit of time here and there to get everything taken care of. I’ve also decided to get a male roomate who’s a very close friend, both for my peace of mind having a male present and also to help with the rent because moving to a new home in a decent area has upped the rent substantially. I ask for respect when it comes to my having a roomate…the last thing I need right now are losers in my chatroom begging to see me suck his cock. I will not disclose who it is I’m living with in the slightest, as to protect not only his privacy, but my own (I know whoever is harassing me watches me, and if he found out who I am living with, it’d be super easy for him to find me)

I know it seems life never slows down for me, and it seems like I’m always moving….I’m hoping I can make this new home a more permanent one for a while. I’m bummed that I have to leave my dream apartment…but again, remaining optimistic about my new surroundings. Thanks everyone who’s given me their support and kind words of concern, I appreciate it more than you know. <3

I want to take a moment to thank everyone for what happened last nite. It was the first night of the Spexy Olympics, and while I was expecting a lot of fun, and perhaps a bit more tipping than usual, there was no way I could prepare myself for the madness that happened. The outpouring of tips I recieved overwhelms and humbles me. I can’t believe just how blessed I am to not only have boys who showcase that type of tip-love, but have boys who show love for ME, and support what I try to bring to MFC. I am forever grateful to my #teamspexy for making my life what it is, and bringing smiles so big to my face that it hurts. (and in last nites case, bring me tears of happiness!) I wish there was a better way to thank you – I just hope my words can properly convey how I feel. Thank you.

Special shoutouts go to:

Mike1340

Secretflyer (who TWICE broke his rule of only tipping in 6′s…tsk tsk lol)

DK__Ash

Jazzmint

and to everyone else who tipped:

kael247

tim518

steve2011

MrJamesDuffy

Devo_

bassnipple

Shinerbock74

kael247

silver0990

Andronicus

You guys all gave me the most heart attack inducing night that I will never EVER forget. Thank you <3

I’m baaaack! OMG I had the BEST time in Cancun!! I was able to relax, have new experiences and escape from life and it was so refreshing! I wanted to post some of my photos because I know you guys are dying to see! For those who either pre-ordered content or purchased giftcards/gifts for my trip, I’ll be editing all the pics/vids this week and getting them to you as soon as possible!!

At the airport and on the plane:

The flight was good and I was so excited to touch down in Mexico! I was taken straight to my resort as soon as I left the airport. We stayed at the Riu Palace Las Americas and it was AMAZING. Here are pics of my room:

and here are pics from around the resort:

The view from my balcony:

The staircase that went up the whole building

The lobby

The pool:

The beach:

The outside of the resort

Random pics of me:

Met a chihuahua on the street!

I went on a snorkelling excursion one of the days which was amazing. They took us to three different eco-systems: the cenotes, an underground river/cave, and the ocean. All three were breathtaking.

At the cenote:

in the underground river/caves:

EEK! BATS!

From the ocean:

STINGRAY!

TURTLE!

And I also went on an excursion that included rappelling down a cliff, ziplining, experiencing a mayan village and its people and visiting the Coba ruins!

Zip lining!

Getting ready to rappell!

Rappelling down the cliff!

Mayan guy doing a cleansing ritual:

Church in the village

Cutest little chihuahua puppy that came out of a hut to say hi! So I went in and played with it for awhile

Photos of the various Coba temples, including the gigantic one I climbed up!!

phew, tons of pics. Thats only like 1/4 of them too lol. But the rest are reserved for the content package holders so I gotta keep them under wraps. I hope you like the photos and hearing about my trip…it was amazing.

And now that my trip is out of the way, you know what that means! Tomorrow begins the Spexy Olympics!!! Check out my profile (by clicking my MFC profile link to the right) for details on how to get involved! xoxoxoxo

Zomg! Only two more days and I’ll be sitting on the beach in Cancun, soaking up the sun! I can’t believe it! I’m so so so excited! I wanted to take this moment to thank the boys for being totally cool with me peacing out for a week. I’m gonna miss you guys terribly and I hope I can get the chance to pop online a couple times to say hi. I also want to take the time to thank a special Ninja who ninja tipped me the other nite:

this person knows me very well and knows that if I’m stressed about anything, I won’t enjoy my time off. I was behind on my goal token-wise and he tipped to catch me up and get me where I needed to be. My bills are now taken care of for the time that I’m gone and I can fully relax because of his generosity, which is priceless. So thank you <3

Signups for the Spexy Olympics are going fantabulous so far! I can't wait to jump into the battle once I get back! For anyone who doesn't know what the Spexy Olympics are, here are the details and info on how to sign up!

I will be taking team signups while I’m gone, so offline tips are welcome! You can see the current team members by checking out my profile here -> http://profiles.myfreecams.com/spexyashleigh

Well guys, this is my opportunity to say bye bye and that I’ll see you soon! Make sure to check my twitter/tumblr to see when I’ll be making appearances, and to generally check in and see how I’m doing! I head to Toronto on Tuesday, and fly out on Wednesday and will be gone til the 11th. Hope everyone has a great week and I’ll see you soon!!! xoxoxoxo -Spexy

I want to take a moment to check in and explain my mini-meltdown last nite. As most of you know, MFC has been rather “dead” for me lately. Countdowns not being even close to finished, camscore taking a major tank…etc, causing me obvious stress and concern for my financial well being. And I know that ALL of you know how craptacular MFC’s servers have been the last couple of months, with the constant freezing, lagging, booting etc. Last nite was a mix of both problems unfortunately and I kind of snapped (don’t worry, off cam lol) I was online for a couple hours, with little to no tips, and then all of a sudden I got booted from MFC. No biggie, it happens 294 times a nite so I just logged off and back in again. Only when I went to broadcast, no one could see my cam. I WAS broadcasting, and I could see myself…but it wasn’t broadcasting to the rest of the chatroom. I fought with it for 20 mins, switching back and forth between the browser broadcaster and the software one, nothing worked. So I gave up and took my frustration to twitter to vent. (also made sure to send a tweet to @myfreecams so they could get a piece of that frustration lol)

Now I’m here to apologize for my stressful, non-happy tweets…I’m a girl who wears my heart on my sleeve and I react in the moment and am 100% honest with my emotions and feelings on MFC. If I’m hurt, upset, stressed, scared…not something I can hide. With a trip coming up, I’m feeling even more pressure because I need to make sure my bills are taken care of prior to my trip. I also need to feel secure in knowing that the next pay period, I’ll still be able to pay my bills for next month, with me taking a week out from MFC. So this pay period I was hoping to make a bit extra…its not going to happen now, so I don’t know what to do.

But I wanted to apologize for my depressed demeanor lately, I know its not sexy or the usual fun, upbeat Ashleigh that you’re used to. Hopefully things turn around and we can get back to being a happier #teamspexy. <3

Hey there!!! I know its been eons since I’ve blogged last…been feeling like my life has been pretty uneventful and I feel like I have nothing to say really, but here I am anyways! lol. First off – my future sister in law has joined MFC and I want you all to welcome her! Her name is ShyAlexa and she is the biggest sweetheart ever! So go make her smile guys

Hmmm what else can I talk about…hmmm…oh yes! I am going to Cancun in April! WAHOOOO VACAY! I’m most excited about this trip because it’ll actually be a vacay – my Vegas trip was 100% work. So margaritas, tacos and beautiful sand and surf and sun! So so pumped! I’ll be announcing a mini bikini/dress/shorts/sandals fundraiser because the last time I was at a beach that warranted shorts and a bikini was in 2009 – pre boob job lol. You’ll all have the chance to score some hot Cancun content so make sure to check back.

I’m heading up to my folks’ home tomorrow with the puppies. Pretty excited! Going to get to show off the Kia for the first time and also drop off all of those home movies I had converted to DVD. Speaking of those movies, I found this clip last nite while I was watching and burning copies of them and thought it’d be cute for you guys to see me as a kid. This vid is of my very first figure skating competition (as you can see, I’m not very good lol) and I am around seven years old. Hope you enjoy!!

SKATE COMP by SpexyAshleigh

Oh boy, where to begin lol. The last few weeks have been CRAAAAZY! I guess I’ll start with the car fundraiser. I found a car that I LOVEEED (see previous blog post) and decided to hold a Car Fundraiser to try to raise the money for the down payment. The goal for the weekend was 100,000 tokens ($5000) and we had three days to do it. To be honest, I didn’t think we’d hit it…not that I doubt your guys’ support but it was just a REALLY lofty goal lol. We started the fundraiser on the Friday night and in the first night made almost half of what we needed!!!!!!! Then the Saturday and Sunday, the rest was completed (with the biggest tip I got capping off the fundraiser while I was in the bathtub!) Here are some of the tip highlights:

Here is the final tally!

I want to take this moment to honestly express my gratitude to each and every person who contributed to the car fund. I’ve never had a car before this, and getting it will and has changed my life. I can’t thank you enough.

Look at how beauuutiful it is

I love love love this car!!!! Thank you again to everyone who made it happen for me!!!

After the fundraiser (like, immediately after) I flew to Vegas to be a part of the camgirl mansion and attend AEE! It was such a great experience on many levels! I got to meet the coolest and sweetest girls around and it was such a liberating experience getting to be around girls and friends who I could be 100% open with. I had the most fun of my life at the mansion and I can’t wait to do it again! I also got to meet four very special boys who travelled to see me at AEE but also spend private time with me on a date. Totally an awesome experience! And my time at the MFC booth was such a blast! I met so many great people and got to feel a bit like a celebrity for a couple days – not a bad gig! Here are some of my photos from the trip:

On the plane ride to Vegas:

The mansion!!

On my date with SecretFlyer:

On date with Thomas and Toonieman:

The limo’s going to and from the Hard Rock/AEE:

At AEE:

Me and GinnyPotter:

Me and a Jack Sparrow impersonator that wanted me to shoot in a porno with him lolz

Me and AspenRae

Me and the lurvvvely KristyCalisto

Me and the AMAZING security guy from the booth…took good care of us and myself personally. Love him!

Me and EgyptBeauty

Me being a picture whore in the bathroomat AEE lol

At the Mansion party!

Me and one of the security team members..yep…dressed as Batman…yep…EPIC.

Me and my roomie, Miss Holliecakes <3

Me and ScarletRaven

Me and SkyeBlue (fuck I miss her and her awesome stories…and her accent!)

Me and AbbeyRhode!

Randoms:

Some BEAUTIFUL flowers that someone had sent for us girls at the mansion! AWWWW!

Random shot of NY NY.

and finally a shot of us girls out for a burger

All in all it was a fantastic trip. Had a blast and met the coolest people! Can’t wait to do it again soon, perhaps Exxxotica Miami in May? Ok my fingers are falling off from this blog that took way over an hour…so time for me to end it and take a bubble bath before cam! xooxoxoxoxox love you boys!

Ok, so like a week or two ago, I went to a few car dealerships with my gf because she was in the market to upgrade her car. We browsed around, took a few test drives and then an SUV caught my eye at Kia. Now, I don’t drive at all…I don’t even have my license (its expired, just gotta go get it renewed)…but this car was like ZOMGGOTTAHAVEIT! lol. I made my friend take it out for a test drive and I fell in love with it. Its a 2010 Kia Sportage LX. Fully loaded, only 22k km on it. Great price. I called my dad, and he said he’d sign for it in his name since my license is expired so I can’t right now, and he’d switch it over to my name once I got that taken care of. So I went into the dealership to ask about financing and applied…but was rejected because of how I make my money. Since I work for a US company (mfc) and I’m canadian and am not given actual pay stubs, the banks aren’t willing to trust me. Basically my income looks shady, and they don’t want to back me up in case I’m doing something illegal (ie. escorting) Apparently strippers have this same issue. So I went and talked to the manager of the dealership to try to explain my situation and explain what I do for a living (btw he thought it was AWESOME and asked if guys can go on webcam too LOL) and after discussing it a bit, he told me he’d talk to the owner of the dealership. Apparently sometimes the owner of the dealership will offer private loans to people like me, ie. strippers because he knows we’re good for the money, its just impossible to get banks or loan people to see that. So they were going to discuss whether they could work something out for me. WELL….I got the call today, and the good news is- they’re going to help me out. Bad news- I need to come up with a $5000 deposit upfront before I can sign anything and take it home. They need to know I’m legit and not just some random biotch trying to snag a car only to default on payments. So I need to come up with $5000 asap.

SO….I’m thinking of holding a “Help buy Ashy a car” fundraiser for this weekend. All tokens donated will go towards this deposit, and I’ll be offering a ton of goodies and prizes and stuff…and I’ll be on cam nonstop til I hit it. I know its alot of money but I really do need a car. I’m hoping to work on starting up my photography business this year and I can’t do that without a car. Not to mention, having a vehicle so I can go visit family would be awesome…I moved all the way to Ontario so I could be close to family and I’ve only seen them like twice since I’ve been back. So I’m going to do whatever I can to get this car, and hopefully it happens. I’ll be posting more info on this weekends fundraiser when I figure out the details but stay tuned because there’s going to be ALOT of stuff to be won!

btw, here is a pic of the car:

isn’t it so pretty!???

So- thats the news of today. I’ve been excited and giddy all afternoon thinking that this goal of mine might be accomplished really soon…gahhh! Anyhoo just wanted to share my news and let you know about this weekend! xoxo

There is nothing I can’t take more than being made to feel not good enough, or that I’m not doing good enough of a job. You can call me a whore, a slut, fat, ugly, worthless – ANYTHING- but I cannot handle it when someone tells me I don’t do good enough of a job.

Now I am far from perfect – no one is – but I work the hardest that I possibly can as a camgirl. Being a camgirl is a 24/7 job, we are always on call, always working behind the scenes and always striving to be the epitome of sex, style, class and personality. We need to have it all, and be everything you, as the viewer, needs us to be. But the moment we falter, the moment we get overwhelmed with work, with life…and you feel like we’re not doing a good enough of a job for you, all of a sudden we’re horrible at our job. And tonite, I got publically called out for what someone felt wasn’t good enough. He felt the need to blast me online in front of all my colleagues, my fans, my closest friends online – all because I hadn’t gotten his custom content (that he won in the fall during one of my prize giveaways) to him yet. I felt this judgement was pretty unfair considering a) I am still waiting for him to tell me what he wants in his custom content (to the guy in reference – when I ask you what you want in an email, its best to just tell me instead of telling me to “just check your mfc mail history”…gets the job done alot quicker, especially considering I get literally dozens of emails a day and sometimes…just sometimes…one or two goes overlooked) and b) when he won this custom content, it was days before my summer vacation, during which I came down sick and spent the next several weeks in and out of the hospital, back and forth between doctors offices and getting tests done and being put on new medications that literally left me in bed because they made me so sick. Followed by struggling to cam as much as I could so that I could make up for the time lost on cam, because unfortunately us camgirls don’t get sick days and if we are too sick to get on the computer, we lose income. It took me until November to catch up on my bills. Mix that with the holiday season (first time in years being home for xmas, so sorry, I made that a priority) and bam – there goes an email missed. I’m sorry you feel I jipped you. I’m sorry you felt the need to take it to twitter to blast me publically. I’m sorry I’ve been so busy with life and just trying to keep it together enough to pay my bills and try to make the hundreds of guys I cater to happy…but I can’t and won’t apologize for not being perfect. I can’t do it all. And like I’ve said, I’m happy to do your content, as soon as you let me know what you want to see in said content.

I’m sorry guys for the rant…like I said, I can handle being called alot, but being treated like I am a horrible camgirl…can’t stomach that. Its New Years Eve and instead of being with my friends in the living room to celebrate, I’m hiding out in the bathroom writing this blog because I can’t relax and can’t enjoy my night until I’ve gotten this all off my chest. I have to speak up when it concerns my work as a camgirl because frankly, camming is my life. You guys are my life. I do the best that I can and if thats not enough, then maybe you should move on to a camgirl who CAN be perfect for you and get everything done on time, even if life hands her chaos. No disrespect to the person in question, I’m happy to get your content sent to you and I’m only an email away when you’re ready and able to let me know what you want to see. And hopefully this blog doesn’t offend anyone, or make me seem like a bitch. Certainly not my intent, just trying to clear my name and vent a bit because I feel like I was mistreated tonite. Happy New Year to everyone, and please make sure to drive safely (no drinking and driving now! )